I survived Thanksgiving!

Thursday was Thanksgiving which means that its the start of the Holiday season and crazy lines in stores, no parking spots available ad endless deals and lots of spending. I had a nice break from Tuesday night until today. Its good to be home and around friends and family, yet I love being at college. Only 2 and a half weeks left of the semester! Holy moly where did this semester and year go? I mean 30 days until New Years Eve and only 23 days until Christmas (Im not counting today or Christmas Day! lol).

As a recovering anorexic, the holidays can be a challenge especially when its a holiday that revolves around food. I arrived at my aunts house at 2pm because that was the time she told everyone to arrive. Well we ended up eating at 5:30! Yikes! Im not one to really snack before a meal but I had maybe 1/4 oz of swiss cheese, 1 gluten free rice thin cracker, organic celery with salsa as well as a taste of my aunts spinach dip (big fear food). My cousin who's my age made Apple Cider Sangria with 2 or 3 different types of white wine, a full bottle of Brandy and Apple Cider. To be honest it was very tasty! I probably had about 3 full solo cups filled. Oooops!

For the main dinner, I had 1/4 of a sweet potato, a 1/2 cup of roasted root vegetables, a spoonful of gluten-free stuffing, some pearl onions, a spoonful of turn ups and 5 oz of organic turkey. I figured as Im recovering, I might as well as some poultry and fish in my diet because I need more protein. I will only eat organic poultry and fish but normally I would just stick with my vegetarian ways and lifestyle. For dessert (pretty shocking) my mom and I shared two small slices of pumpkin pie and a chocolate pudding pie. I mainly just ate the inside of the pumpkin pie and my mom had the rest along with the pudding pie. I did try it, it was just way too rich for me. Overall, I think it was a successful day for me and Im defiantly thankful for my health, getting healthier (I hate and Im scared of saying weight gain), and my family. 

Also! I made my infamous pilgram hat cookies! Everyone goes nuts over them! I ended up only taking 2 home! 

Midway through

I cant believe its November 15th already! That means I only have a month left of school and that includes finals! I have 2 major projects left today, a portfolio review, my internship project, and 4 finals and Im done for the semester! I registered Tuesday for my last semester as an undergrad! Say what! Im taking an accounting class (oh joy!), a computers class which is a gen ed, a banquet class (nutrition class), Organizational food and management class (also nutrition), and fitness for life. Im excited but def kinda nervous about accounting. I was slacking a bit with seeing my therapist and RD but this weekend Im seeing both. One good thing that happened, I have a new roommate, I actually switched out. My old roommate was Mia and only wanted to be with her bf. She felt that I had too many problems. Hey everyone has his or her issues. Anyways, Im much happier now. Im trying to eat every few hours which is tough at times but I just keep telling myself, "I need the energy and brain power for my studies. I need to get healthier."

When life gets going and it all moves too fast

Life can move so fast at times. Im entering my last and final year at college, in a months time, I'll be 22 years old, I have a job, soon I'll be a college graduate looking for a full time job and then comes loans to pay back. With all this comes anxiety and stress. For someone recovering from an eating disorder, how can you control what you can not control? Make a coping box or coping draw. Basically decorate, if you'd like, an old shoe box. Put a few things that can get your mind off "stinking thinking." FOr example, mine has a coloring book, crayons, a Buddha chanting machine, a CD of Teddy Geiger and crochet needles and a guitar pick. In the past Ive had pictures which represented scrapbooking, a book that I was reading and a latch hook needle. What helps to deter you from your issues can help you out in the long run and each persons box or draw is different.

A new direction

Im fairly new to this whole blogging world. As through previous attempts, Ive come to the conclusion that private issues should spoken outside of a journal or diary. As for the purpose of this blog, Im going to be posting how Im getting closer to my ultimate goal of being healthy. Ive struggled with anorexia and compulsive over exercising since I was 14/15. Im almost 22 and almost a college graduate. Im currently majoring in nutrition and hopefully one day I can help those struggling with eating issues to have a healthier relationship with his or her body and with food. My goal is post my everyday struggles to a point and post some of what I eat, healthy recipes and anything else that I find interesting. Currently, I've been working in  deli which has caused me to really interact with customers. I've discovered who I really am: sweet, smart, outgoing, friendly, talkative, and happy.  In my eating disorder, I was shy, quiet and afraid. Even though I have my issues and  dont eat meat, I dont mind working in a deli, Im not afraid of what I smell or touch.